Flowers

Summer flowers for you

Salads

So in a bid to loose some weight and eat healthy my co-worker and myself have gotten into getting vegetables and nuts and whatever else and making salads. This one was made last week sometime.



In case it isnt clear - there are avocados, walnuts, zucchini, tomatoes, cucumber, pepper (I think), lettuce and some other things I cannot remember.

Here is the same salad from another angle.

Time off

I have like 6 days off!

I have too much accumulated time and so I have take my holidays. This is above and beyond my vacation time. Yippie!

So I dont go back to work till Thursday which is fine.

I want clean up my place, hang out, wax, and of course cook some delicious snacks that I remembered my mum making as a kid. We'll see how productive I have been in like 6 days.

I am lazy so I might just curl up in front of TV and catch all the movies/TV shows I've always wanted to see.

I am a vegetarian

Not one of those crazy ones that will make you guilty for eating meat. Hell I even cook meat - just dont eat it.

I ate chicken yesterday. By mistake and I feel sick.

I ordered a veg wrap and they put chicken in by mistake. I ate a few bites thinking all the while - this tastes weird. Anyways, I noticed the chicken in bite no 3 or 4 and ever since then - I feel sick. I feel gross.

Damn!

My oh my...

To start - I was weird, awkward kid in school. Never fit in - was always sticking out like a sore thumb!

Forward to now - I just stumbled upon photos put up by an old friend on facebook. In there were photos of two ppl I knew who were going out like 8 years ago. They are engaged.

No, this is not a sappy post about ever lasting love - thats just not me. Its more of a bitchy post.

So these two (the couple) were like the coolest couple in school. And seeing their photos now - I wonder why?

They seem just ordinary ppl. Hmmm funny what times does to ppl!

This reminds of the movie High Fidelity where John Cusack's character realizes how lousy Catherine Zeta-Jones' character really is - after thinking for the longest time she was the coolest chick ever! That is what this moment is for me.

Oh well!

I drove to work today. Usually I take the bus.

I was driving today without my license on me. It was stressful. I had forgotten my wallet at work but couldnt get out of driving. So, here I am driving and looking out of the corner of my eye for cops. Paranoid that I am being followed.

I have driven without my license before but that time I didnt know...It was nothing. This time was very stressful. As soon as I parked the car I was relieved. I got out and ran to work.

Phew!

Eeek

My boss is not having a very good day or a good month.

That is never good - not for her, not for me!

I ramble when I am nervous


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I want to go to Pompeii when I am in Italy.

My social life

I dont have one.

I am in a weird situation. I am about 9 years younger to J. So expectedly J has very different group of friends than I do.

His friends are all married with kids. To the point that we are are the black sheep of friends (didnt know I could ever use the words black, sheep and friends, in the same sentence but I did anyways). So all the ppl we used to hang out with - are no more. We cant go out with friends in the evening cause their kids wont let them. Consequently, we have started going out together - and watching movies and having dinner. Now, if you have been the same person for awhile, you will know this can get boring at times. I love J and all but really - having friends around help us distract us from each other.

My friends are all just out of uni and finding jobs. Marriage is the last thing on thier minds. Getting by and paying off those student loans occupies their free time. Then there is hooking up with guys and travelling. Needless to say - there is not much in common with the two groups.

We are stuck in between. This directly means that my social life is non-existent.

It sucks.

Advise

I find that we as humans - love to give advise. Free advise to one and all.

It is irritating as hell when you are at the receiving end. Especially if you didnt ask for it and if it centers around babies.

Infants, raising kids, conceiving kids, lifestyles with kids. One and all.

Since we are the only couple left with no kids - I cant describe what that does to your social life - we get advise. Free.

Unasked advise.

It is annoying. I feel like screaming.

Diary of a crazy girl

I was chatting online with one of my old school mates. I have known this girl (lets call her Diane) since we were in grade/standard 8th. So quite awhile now. We have been in touch on and off.

I think she is crazy. No, like seriously something is wrong with her.

It was through Diane that I met my friend Violet, who is a really good friend and I keep in touch with her. Anyways, so a few months ago I was talking to Violet and she told me that she had been in touch with Diane.

Diane apparently complained to Violet that her parents were beating her up. Locking her in the house, not letting her see her friends, meet any guys and she could not talk on the phone without being monitored by her parents.

Yes, it sounds serious. I have also met her parents who are the sweetest people I have met. They are tiny compared to my friend and really love her. I could be wrong. People could pretend to be something they are not - so I guess my friend could be telling the truth. I give her the benefit of doubt.

After Violet knew of this - she asked Diane to call a few people - who were professionals in dealing with these sorts of things. Violet has worked as a social worker before she moved to UK. Violet expressed that Diane had to be the one to make the call - if we wanted help all she had to do was call and these people would help her out.

After this, if I am not mistaken - Violet talked to one of these professionals and told him all about Diane, gave him her phone number. Violet, then, moved to UK. This was all happening in Bombay and Diane is still there. I havent heard anything from Violet regarding this and nor from Diane.

Fast forward to now.

I have chatted a few times with Diane. We were good friends and it seems that technology has helped us to re-start that same old friendship. The few times I have chatted with Diane - she has mentioned numerous men, all attached, who keep hitting on her.

Guys we both knew growing up. Guys who at one point in time must have had a crush on her or asked her out. But they are all either married or have girlfriends. But they, supposedly, keep hitting on Diane. Wanting to get together with her, leave their partners for her and so on. This is all from Diane's prespective. As much as I want to believe all of this - I feel that there is something fishy going on. She always talks about guys we both knew. Guys who she was never interested in - at all. She wouldnt give them the time of the day back then and these guys supposedly still have something for her and would leave everything if only she gave them a chance. Hmmm, sounds a bit far fetched to me.

She has mentioned to me at least twice how these guys wives or girlfriends are extremely jealous of her. How she went to x guy's wedding and the bride was sulking and unhappy because Diane decided to attend the wedding. And everytime she says something like this - She sounds extremely happy. Like she actually enjoys this.

What makes it even more unbelievable is that she was supposedly to marry this distant cousin of hers, yes a cousin - very distantly attached, who was married to someone else. He was going to live his then wife and marry Diane. This however did not go over well with her parents who objected to the marriage.

Now, this just sounds crazy to me. I know Diane - very well.

I dont know if I should help, or even how to help given I am so far away.

I am loving peaches.

I love them! The thought of eating a peach fills me with evil laughter, my eyes sparkle when I have that peach in my hand....

Whoo-hoo

Its the 60th Independence day for India!

I am excited and sad. But more excited.

I had a very vivid and weird dream. It was all about flowers. Thats all I can remember. There were tonnes of flowers everywhere. I am allergic to flowers - maybe it was some kind of punishment. I dont know. I never have good dreams they are always twisted, bloody, full of misery. Which is why this flowers dream is confusing me. I clearly remember the flowers just not what they were there for....

Oh well.

As J puts it - we have started playing Russian Roulette with the whole pregnancy thing. We stopped using birth control but are not trying to get pregnant. If we do, we do. If not, then there is always Italy.

Oh yea, forgot to mention we are going to Italy for a whole month! Yippie. Actually we might stop over London and then proceed to Italy. But it will be good. Italy is going to go ahead anyways. So that will be exciting. Plus, my good friend lives near London - I havent seen her for 7 years - so that will be fun!

I am a minority.

Yes, yes I am brown and a woman - but this just adds to my minority-ness...(?)

http://newsvote.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/magazine/6943871.stm

Friends - update

The friends who were supposed to stay with our in-laws are now staying at a B&B. Not b/c of anything but b/c our friends mother paid for a B&B for his son and family.

What I dont get is as a lawyer with a child - couldnt you have the courtesy to do it by yourself?

In anycase, I dont care. All I know is that I dont have to move in to my inlaws place for a week and that is a-okay with me!

I noticed..

I am blessed by an unusual name by North American standards.
So I have to say my name and then spell it out.

Everytime I have to spell out my real name or for that matter anything - I always say like (for eg) K-a-r-e-n so K for Kathy, A for Anne, R for Rhonda and so on.

It is always girl names or girly thingys. Like B for butterfly. I donno why. It is never K for Kevin. I know Freud might have had some insight into why this is - but I always find it amusing.

I lost a whopping 2 pounds in 2 weeks!!!!!

However, I am excited cause it was all done by eating right and exercising. Atleast I know its working. And I cant get too greedy - yippie!

Oy

This weekend was not good. On Friday we stayed home - nothing exciting. On Saturday we had J's friends over for dinner. This is after pleading w/ J to let me have his friends over - J doesnt really like to have ppl over our place. I dont know why.

So Saturday morning he goes to work - he had to. So it falls to me to cook, clean and shop for guests coming over. I do it. He comes home at 6 and his friends at 7 - everything is fine. Sunday morning was the Pride Parade - which goes right through the street next to us. I was so excited for it - as I have never been to one and since it was so close and all. J was invited by one of his boss for a pre-parade drink. I wake up with cramps in my stomach. I couldnt move. I tell J - go ahead I will meet up with you when I can. He doesnt go. I somehow take a bunch of painkillers and get ready and go. We arrive late to his place. No one answers to door (we couldnt tell if the buzzer was working). Anyways we come back. J is pissed. We get into an argument where he blames me for everything that went wrong in his life.

I miss most of the pride parade. Sometimes men are such babies. J can be so difficult. All I wanted to was to see the parade - I wont be able to see it next year cause we will have to move to the burbs to have children. As if, kids cant grow up in the city! God. Sometimes I dont understand this North American thinking. The need to have yards for kids to play or them to have seperate rooms - Pffft! I has nothing to do with kids. It has everything to do with what to want and what you want for your kids. Sometimes its just not necessary.

One of top of the other....

J did something stupid. Well he doesnt see it that way but I do.

He is a lawyer and was meeting a client - who works for a place I wouldnt mind working.
He mentioned something of the sort to them. They took it seriously and will now consider offering me a job.

I feel angry and totally useless. I did not want a job my husband found for me. I did not want any special mentions, I did not want anyone to know that I was married to him so that they could offer me a job.

I dont know what to feel. I mentioned this to him and he said something like - he just mentioned my name and the rest took its own course. They know who I am - I have sent them a few resumes. Fine - I do believe him. But - I still feel wierd. I dont how to explain it.

To top it off, this new position will be something I am slightly interested in. I like what I do now, here at my present job. I hate doing research and that is what this new job will be. I will get paid significantly better - which is good cause I barely make anything here. But, everything aside - I feel wierd and J doesnt see what the problem is. To make it worse - he did it out of the good of his heart. There was no malice and no bad thought when he was doing it.

Guess I just have to wait and see what happens.

I love listening to Virgin radio on my comp while working. I donno why - it makes the day go fast I think.

Anyhoo, I am dreading - really dreading - having to move in with my in-laws for a week. J's friends from New York are coming - the one with a child and need a place to crash. I am all in for that and do like them and they let us crash at their place when we were in NYC - but here is the catch. The dude is lawyer in NY - he get paid $400/hr in US $$$ - wouldn't it just be easy for them to stay in a hotel? Surely, they can afford it!

I do understand paying back for the time we spend at their place but it was the two of us in a sofa bed. No child. So its not like we asked them to shift their lives around!

Anyhoo, whateves, will stay at the in-laws for a week. Maybe the sheer tension will make me loose some weight - I doubt it though!

My mil was shocked the last time we were there. J called me a bitch in front of his mom - not a kosher thing to do ever. So I got back to him saying something nasty like - you want bitch - I'll give you one. His mom's jaw dropped to the ground. She hates even more now. I am sure she will try to convey her hatred for me to J when I am away. Something completely passive-aggressive like - "I cant believe Viki talks to you like that" Or "Viki is such a princess, blah blah blah". She has actually done that in the past and called me a princess too. It was different - we were living in her house as she was kind of to point out at every opportunity she got. No more. No more.

If she does something like that - I am going to have to say something.

This is my 170th post, for those keeping tabs.

I went to acupuncture yesterday and man I feel exhausted. However, I know in few treatments I will feel differently.
That shit really works!

If you have a bad back like me - try it. I will work even though you might feel exhausted for the first few times.

Cant believe its August 1!

Seems like summer just started and soon it will be fall and all will be gone...

Do you like my stupid rhyme?