Selfish

I am here watching TV...thinking....

I have to go grocery shopping. I imagine walking down the aisles. I have everything I want - yet I dont have you. Is that selfish? Wanting everything?

I can buy whatever I want - how much ever I want. What does it matter? I dont have you. Do I cry then? Do I complain...? Can I?

I want to. Everyday. Ever since I came here - I cry for you. I will never have you. Ever. But I have other things. Other things that other people want. Do I complain? Can I - then?

Will this pain ever end? Is there a way I can have it both? I want to.

Sometimes I am so alone......