Staff Meetings

Yes, we all know them and we all have them.

I for one hate them. Because of all the obvious things too but mostly b/c I work with suburban white women. Which means every staff meeting the lunch is either sandwichs - which I dont mind or something more exotic - i.e. sushi.

Freaking goddamn - I hate sushi right now. It costs a buck - what the hell is so exotic and different? You live in Vancouver! You can eat sushi anytime of the day.....Argh!

Moving

Moving is driving me crazy!
It is too much work!
Really I wish I could just leave everything behind and move in and buy all new things.....through catalogues - I hate shopping....

Ahhhhhhhhhh

Balance

There is balance in life.....

I dont like my job - but today I sister found out that she was offered this excellant position....I am on cloud nine today.
I looked in the mirror and I was pink - with happiness.

Life works in wierd ways....but if my sister is happy - I guess I can stop complaining about my job for awhile....

This is good.

Life

Life deals you its blows and you take it. You think that must be it but it is not. Ok, now that is it. No it isnt. Again and again. Over again. You keep taking them till you begin to question - does it ever end? Does it - probably no. Atleast that is what I think.

Life gives you dyslexia - you are like - thats ok. A bit of extra work - nights full of self doubt - extra hard work to understand what 2*2 is - but you think thats fine. Life cant be perfect - you take what you have and make the best of it....?

Err, no. Then it throws crazy parents. You take it. All families are dysfunctional....you take what you have and then you move on.

Then you get the problem of trying to live by with what money your parents make and try your best. Yet, it doesnt end.

You find someone and marry them - hoping maybe that was it and things will be different.

Then you find someone guy who loses his head every five minutes if food is the question.

Then b/c you are a vegetarian - ppl make fu of you, mention this every fucking time they meet you. Your husband being the asshole he is - mentions this everytime a freaking dish involving things other than vegetables goes wrong.....you she is vegetarian - what does she know.....
WELL ATLEAST SHE MAKES YOU WHATEVERY MEAT YOU WANT TO EAT! EVERYTIME. SHE GOES OUT OF HER WAY TO DO THIS. I cant even argue cause I am married to a freaking lawyer and I lose all the time.

And yet....it doesnt end. You get the short end of the stick every fucking time. You find a job and you dont get permanent even though you are doing a great job and everyone says this so...b/c of something going wrong at work.

And now,,,I ask why and no one gives me an answer. No one. How much? How much? How long?

Ok I know this is one too many - but I just had to -

Your Job Dissatisfaction Level is 31%

Your job is not bad, but it's probably not a long term thing. You're just not happy enough to stick around for too long... And there's little that can change how you feel. Start looking around for other options, but only quit for something really good!

Should You Quit Your Job?

You Are a Chimera

You are very outgoing and well connected to many people. Incredibly devoted to your family and friends, you find purpose in nurturing others. You are rarely alone, and you do best in the company of others. You are incredibly expressive, and people are sometimes overwhelmed by your strong emotions.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Cry

I want to cry. Its the job. I don't like it. I have my reasons. Most ppl think I shd be happy to have it at all and I know that. But there are things I don't like about it.

Today my boss walks into my office and asks me to create a newsletter. My description, although non-existent , is mostly to do research/analysis/ writing. Not desk-top publishing. I just have no interest in it. Besides I don't have promise of a job and no pay increase to take this up. I am angry b/c I cant just quit. I have to do this. I need the money but everyday I wake up and I am sad.

Damn not being rich. Damn having to bust your as$ everyday. I hate all the privileged for this reason. They will never have to do this for a measly paycheque. Never to have this feeling. When is my money coming?

On a fairly recent series of emails between 'friends' (here is use the word loosely) there was a discussion on where to go for a b'day celebration. Choice was 2 restaurants. Being thorough I naturally compared the two and sent an email backing my restaurant of choice. Given that I will be paying for heroine's upteenth dinner yet again - I thought I might as well go to a place where I can eat something this time.

[Maybe on a different post sometime in the future I will outline how I think I get totally ripped off everytime anything w/ the heroine is involved! You the kind of person who cheaps out on gifts but expects something spectacular every b'day? She is the one. Anyhoo, I digress...]

So I give my opinion and so does J - cause that is what we do. We are thorough and we actually give a damn where and on whom we are going to spend a billion dollars!

Here is what completely pissed me off - The rest of emails come by saying something to the effect of - oh whatever, I am ok with it. I cant compare cause I never been to these places so and so forth. In other words, completely blah responses. What is w/ ppl and them not wanting to give an opinion? I dont care about the damn restaurants but really - this is every thing in this country! Where are your balls? Seriously!
What is with not wanting to commit and stick w/ it? Why the need to be polite every freaking time? Why?

Talking to myself

I hate my freaking job!!!!!


Breathe...

Remember - student loans, 3 years, two kids (ideally), then school....

Breathe...

It will be alright.

You will do ok. Just ride it out till loans are paid and saved some money! It will be ok.

I my what should I rant about today thoughts - I could not come up with anything....

I always have things to rant about so this is quite concerning. Actually I do have one but it will be an angry rant and will get me all worked up so I am not going to go there.



I do get to go to India though. Yes, I want to celebrate Holi there. Which will be boat loads of fun!
I am only going for like 12 days or something. Believe me if I could go for 3 months I would. But I have earn a living and J's extended family is there - whom I do not want to visit. They suck the life out of me.

So it will be blissful 12 days of arguing with my dad of what a failure I am and how selfish I am. Oh joy!
On the good side - I get to see my mom, my bro and my sis. Which is cool. Cant wait.

As noted before I find accents and super fascinating. (Here is my list of favourite accents and also this).

BTW Woman with an Irish accent = super hot!!! I watch Ronin the other day and the actress in the movie had an irish accent and I thought it was cool.