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We all know things change. Mostly for the good - here. But some of it isfor the bad.

People who you thought were cool are not - whats more they never were....

Politics. A lot of it.

The funny thing is a lot of my cousins are now out of the country - India. I.e. They have made it big. Their parents think so - they have changed. And not for the better.

And it is all so materialistic. Its all about stuff and all about money.

As a kid you would never know money did that to people.

Oh well.

Its not all been bad. I have eating my heart out. Things that you dont get in Vancouver. Stuff that only your mum can make.

So that is good. I love the fact that I hae true friends in this part of the world. I saw them in 3 years and they havent changed a bit.

I admire my lil sis day by day. I am so proud of her. She is doing so good inspite of all the negativity around her.

My parents well - they are my parents. What else can I say?

Anyways

Its been a trip. A trip to the motherland. I leave on the 4th!

Am going to Bombay - for a few weeks - see you when I get back!

Argh!

Too many things to do. I almost feel I shd postpone my trip. I just have too many things to take care of.

But of course I cant. Am now thinking that I need to be in a less stressful job. I hate responsibilities being a typical Saggi!

Maybe I shd take up something like being a cashier in a retail job!

Wait....I already had that and I hated it.

Something with a balance. Something suitable for an Anth/Geog major.....

What can I do....?

I have a superpower

Okay I have X-ray vision. I know its not that cool as moving into the future and stuff but its cool enough!
Here is blurb from the test ppl about my abilities...

What's Your Superpower?



Holy smokes, you've got X-RAYVISION! Your answers show a keen sense of insight, coupled with a piercing mind. Okay, so you may not be able to see through brick walls — not yet, anyway. But you probably enjoy looking beneath the surface of things and reading between the lines. Your X-ray vision lets you see things others can't, making you good at reading people's motivations, solving mysteries of all kinds, or maybe just finding misplaced car keys. You've got the gift, so if you haven't started using it, it's high time you did. Just think of the benefits: You could really start undressing people with your eyes. Winning lottery tickets and grand prize soda-bottle caps will be effortlessly revealed to you. So start practicing! All superheroes know that developing your powers begins with mental training. To start honing your X-ray vision, try looking for the hidden meaning in things. Read old English poetry. Do crossword puzzles. Think metaphorically. Once you've trained your mind, you'll be ready to instruct the eyes. Start with gauzey fabrics, then move on to semi-transparent glass. Keep at it, and you'll be seeing through concrete slabs in no time. Good luck!

For Fun

Your Power Color Is Red-Orange

At Your Highest: You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth. At Your Lowest: You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked. In Love: You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve. How You're Attractive: You are very affectionate and inspire trust. Your Eternal Question: "Am I Respected?"

What's Your Power Color?

Movies

I just saw

21 Grams - it was fantastic! It really was. It is one of those movies which make you think and engage you.

and

Pretty Persuasion - was ok. The movie Thirteen was better. Even Racheal Wood is just a fantastic actress.

Freak!

I was the freak in school. Atleast in the younger years. It freaking hurts even now.

No I dont want sympathy. I hate sympathy. Just like I hate pity.

I
think I am happy that now I am at a point where I can take care of
myself. I can stand up for myself - I can walk away if I want. Its
taken a long time and a lot of work. I am proud of it. There I said it.


Take that world!

On a completely different note - I love the Snow Petrol - Chasing Cars....Helps that they have some sort of an English accent ;)

Paul Newman

I love Paul Newman - I just saw Long Hot Summer and it was awesome.

I have seen several of his movies and love him!

I hate talking to people on the phone.

So I am going home on the 16th. India after 3 years.

The absence was partly deliberate - I just cant handle being with my dad. I love him but I am tired of being a disappointment to him. I just cannot handle it anymore. And yet I will see him and it will all start again.

Oh well.

I didnt tell anyone from my extended family - b/c frankly they dont need to know. They might think that they do - but they dont. However, everyone who is anyone knows that I am going there. Which means - expectations.

They are going to expect me to visit them. All of them. And let me tell you there are a lot of them. Most of them are going to expect gifts. I dont have that kind of money nor the time. I am going for 3 weeks. I do not intend to visit anyone - let alone buy them gifts.

And yet there they are.

The thing is - I am not afraid of telling them "I am not visiting you" and disappoint them. I have lived being disappointment all my life - hell, I can take that.

I just wanted it to be easy. For once.

Fuck easy - I say. Fuck easy.